Happiness!

An emotion which makes one feel merry, a moment in time when all worries are forgotten, a time when u feel like embracing your worst enemy..
There are a quite a few things that we all mortals look forward to, things that we hope will bring happiness into our lives. It is this feeling of expectation that keeps us going.

Day after day, i walk into this Infotech Park(Pun Intended)! At 8:30 AM i reach my desk, read my emails, surf the net, update myself with news from all over the world. I make sure i dont miss any hockey news and search the microscopical hockey news for any updates.
Here is where i feel happy. If i find an article on 'Hockey' i feel nice. When half-done with the article, i call up my brother AD, tell him about the news and ask him.. "Did u know about this". Usually the answer is 'Yes'. :) then i say 'Ok' and hang up. Looking for more 'Hockey' news that the Indian Hockey team goal-keeper is unware of.. believe me this is hard!!! But once a while i succeed and then i am VERY HAPPY!!!

Going forward, i wait for my fiancee to buzz me. 9:21 AM sharp and 'Hoobastank' brings melody to my soul. This is what 'seventh heave' must be like, eh?More happiness, more smiles, more fun-filled childish talks...

And then abruplty my happiness is taken away, she's got to get back to work. Time for the call to end... I want more i say, can i just speak for some more time, can I? Nope!

Then for the next 3 hours, its pure anguish. Doing the same kind of a thing for 3 years does make you feel robotic!! Am i a 'Golem'?? Am I?
This is the phase, where i am least happy, least satisfied, least interested in whats happening.
I am as they say 'world-weary', tired, fagged out, jaded.. give me a break guys...

As i sit throug those gory hours and think, is it that they should give me a break, or should I be brave enough to take one for myself.
After all, this is my life, my spirit, my soul...

Its half a day gone, and all i am doing is longing for happiness. In the already spen 12 hours of the day, so far ive spent about 10 minutes, when i've really felt nice..

The rest.. time i can never bring back, moments which are lost forever..

Am i really that helpless, cant i do something?

Time to get real and think!!

Cheers,
Ashley

The remaining 12 hours, tomo! :) good nite