So what is love?

So, what is love? Hmmmm... interesting topic eh....
Well, quite a topic for sure. For me, Love is a feeling of oneness, a feeling that i really care for you, a feeling that I can go that extra mile to make you feel good or smile.

Well, as per the above definition there are just about 4 people I really really love. And yea, they all happen to be my close family. My dear Mom and Dad, my loving brother and my soulmate, lourdes.

I love them too much to even tell them, that I cant live without them. Everyday, when i rise, I thank God for the wonderful day and thank him for giving me 4 wonderful people whom I can talk to and share my thoughts with. The funniest thing about the 'L' feeling is that sometimes you can easily say that sweet word, whereas sometimes, you cant say it, but there is a unseen connection that conveys this emotion.

My brother Adrian and I have not spent a whole lot of time together. He always had his set of friends and I had mine. The he got busy with his hockey career and left home for an independent life. Time passed and soon I left home for my job. And suddenly, it is almost 10 years since we have spent like 1 month together at home or even together.

But, if there is one person for whom I can goto any lengths in this whole wide world, it is Shanu. And I am sure, even he feels the same way. Unbelievable, but we dont even speak very often. And when we are at home the talking is even more rare. But deep inside there is this connection, an invisible cord, a strong power that binds us together. This is love. We dont speak much, we dont share much time, but yes, we love each other more than anything.

On the other hand, I have my dear Lourdes. I speak to her twice a day. Once in the morning and once in the evening. We dont discuss the whole world, but just an update of what is happening, what is cooking, how was the day and whats new? I tell her that I love her atleast 15 times a day. She is a sweetheart. I cannot imagine living without her. She makes me complete. I make sure I call her and convery my feeling everyday. Else, my day would not be complete. Here i love the person and luckily i can express my feelings too.

Isnt it wonderful, that how the same feeling is expressed in 2 very different and opposite ways. The ingredients of the LOVE receipe are the same, but the way the dish is served is absolutely different. Life could not be any sweeter for me right now. The only reason for this is my 4 loved ones. Thank you guys, I miss you every second that I breathe!!

Love and Regards,
Ashu

Patience is the Key...

Life is the best teacher there is! Every second, every minute, every day it teaches us a valuable lesson. It is upto us whether we are smart enough to absorb that and put it to best use.

For me, my biggest problem has been my temper. I lose it at the slightest hint of an irritation. Let that be someone digging their nose, or someone chatting loudly on the phone. My dad always told me to learn and have a control on my temper. He has been saying this since i was 10. When playing cricket in the compound I would be screaming at other kids and my dad did not like it one bit.

Days passed, months and now years. Still, the fool that i am, I have not changed. If anything, I think I have become more worse. Sometimes, I happen to throw someone else's anger on someone else. And more often than not, it my dear Lourdes who is in the firing line.

But I plan to change. I want to change. I want people to see the difference. I am very impulsive. I have lost many a friends to my stupid temper. Sumeet, my best pal for many years, is the biggest loss in my life. We have spent the best of times together. But one stupid mistake by me, changed everything. Even today i regret that day, but I cant change anything. I cant go back.

All I can do is hope that things between Sumeet and Me become the same way they always were. He is one sweet friend.

But what I can do, is improve from today. I need to understand that the best way to overcome any tough situation is to keep quiet. Let the moment pass. Let the heat cool. It makes no sense to shout and hurt people. All you will end up doing is losing respect and one good friend. I have lost many friends. I almost lost another good friend, Ravi yesterday. But I have been blessed to have friends like Ravi and Sumeet, who keep quiet, listen to my crap and still approach me.

I thank God for friends like them. I also hope that God gives me the sense to be calm, composed and more patient when dealing with my dear friends.

So here I go, trying to be calm and sober. Lets see how this goes.

Cheers,
Ashley

Dear Moral Police, are u sleeping?

Yes, So every year we have a drama session. This is held by the so-called moral police of the city. The Shiv Sena and its gang of goons. They rip posters, tear cards, hit the youth and do all sorts of natak just to generate cheap publicity for their flagging party fortunes. So the VALENTINES day bash, as these sainiks must be calling it, comes and goes, they enjoi the limelight. In the news, all over the papers.. wow!!! good job done...

And then we move on. Lets analyze what these goons are protesting against. 1. Is it the western influence? 2.Do they own a card selling brand which competes with Archies/Hallmark? 3. Are they plain jobless and idle?

Doesnt really matter does it? The goons repeat the same thing over and over and over again.. The authority which is supposed to safe guard the common man is a mute spectator (as always). Ask Mr.Amitabh Bhachan. Even he could not do anything regarding the bottle throwing incident at his residence. What can we humble souls do? Just take the beating... (yea, you can also leave the crap to rot there... )

So now, my point is, other than V-Day, dont these goons ever do something which is not freaking Indian??? Lets see.....

1. My recent surfing tells me that one Mr.V Mallya has got some hot chicks from the USofA to cheer his team. It seems these gals were in Mumbai recently. They were cheering for the Bangalore team. But i am sure these goons and useless fellows were enjoing that. No western influence here brother. They must have even molested a few gals if given a chance. Seriously, they can do that.... Doesn't common sense tell you that they should have disrupted the game, beat the bangalore team and sent those gals back? yes, that is what they should have done, what they did do is enjoy the view and wanked their dicks out...

2. The molesting incident on New year (2008), happened. Some goons from a nearby locality were pulled up. What happens next, the goons come and defend these other friendly goons... voila!!! Of course they are all brothers in the crime... No surprise there....
In comparison, so many principals.doctors are beaten just the hint of a crime. Many a times these professionals are innocent and just victims of some personal rivalry. But those desperate, sex-hungry goons get support from the political goons.. wow!!

3. If you guys are so against the western culture, please do me one more small favor. One small rule to be implemented. If (Caste = Goon type) please cancel/tear/burn/bury the PASSPORT. Cause anyways, you dont need the western influence. So you dont need that booklet do you???
But so many of these goons and fellow goons travel to the western country. Where is the culture then?? Speak up u filthy goon???

4. Why did you guys not burn Mr.Sachin's Ferrari? Isnt it from a western country whose influence is bad??? does it not hurt the sales of the Maruti(which is half Japanese anyways).

5. Half or more of the festivals celebrated are a pain. Noise pollution , Air pollution, Water pollution, Harresement of common man, Illegal structures being raised and other crap. And all you morons can think of is clamping and hitting people during V day.

Shame on you bloody hypocrites. Go and find yourselves a better thing to do. May be do what Shawn Michaels would have told you to do...
SUCK IT!!!

Adios Amigos...

Playoff Time

Things change, and they do change for the better...
I was a huge Iverson fan during his Philly days... to add to the spice then, Adrian liked Duncan and the Spurs. So we would wake at 6 AM and watch NBA at home. NBA was not something even remotely popular then. A very few people, ardent basketball fans used to watch it.

But those days were awesome. I got my first desktop and we got the NBA 2000 game from EA Sports. And man-o-man, Adrian and I used to play it all the time. He was busy with his hockey career and me with studies, but we always made time for a NBA game. It rocked. We have had so many fights. I lost most of the time. One fight was so bad that i un-installed the game. :)

But those moments are unforgettable.

today i am the land of the NBA. The playoffs have just begun and I watched almost all the 4 games completely. It was a day of non-stop NBA action. Tomo there will be more NBA and my fav, Pistons get going too..

Today, Adrian is in Australia for a India tour. I am at the other end of the world. And my dear Mom and Dad are in Bombay. Just a few years back, all four would be in the same dining room, AD and Me playing NBA and Mom and Dad watching TV.

I really miss those days. I miss you guys.

The NBA reminds me of those good ole days....

Media that sucks....

Unfortunately, I have to read the papers, because i look for some new about hockey. But thanks to the wonderful print media, that covers all the sports events, i feel fck*@ frustrated and mind fck$%. All these guys can cover is bloody cricket. From the first page to the bloody freaking last page there is cricket. Do these correspondents get some emotional/physical pleasure doing this.

Yesterday, the Indian hockey team was announced. I opened the E-PAPER and they dont hv a single mention. How crazy is that? And these guys create a hoolah when the players fail to perform. Yea rite, no work. All they want is to criticize and slam someone down. Come on u guys, get a life. I mean, does not one single correspondent from your company follow the poor hockey souls. Those guys are playing for pure passion.

On the other hand, our beloved cricketers, who are totally distracted by the IPL give 2 hoots for the country. They lost the 2nd match so tamely and i can bet my ba*&% they will not win the 3rd test. Does anyone raise a question? Where is the morality? Where is the commitment? where is the passion? Bull shit passion...

Dont give those crap stories to me.... the cricketers are a bunch of guys, who just wanna make moolah. They dont care about the country. All they play for is the BCCI. give them cash and they will kiss ur as& too.... serious man...

Anyways, read through the entire crap filled, shit smelling, dirt-rag looking paper.. no mention of hockey.

Thanks TIMES,
Get out and FO...

We dont need crap papers... id rather use it in the toilet....

cheers!!

Finally I Am Thru...

Hard work pays off.. that is an old saying! Today, I can truly believe it does. I took a risk, a chance and today i find myself a zillion times more happy than I would have been. Many people dont want to come out of their shell. Their comfort zone as some people prefer calling it. Its all about priorities as they would say.

I got my priorities right, and took a giant step to the land of oppurtunities. The start was chilly(literally), but as time passed by i weathered the (snow) storm.

I had my highs and my lows. Sometimes, the lows outnumbered my highs. But I knew, that i would make it through. I had worked hard for freaking 4 years. Learn and Understand the system and then use my skills here.

But from Monday, i start a new begining. Its a beginning of a huge proportion. I am glad i have made it through.

I know i have the capabilities to reach new heights and achieve my goals.

Cheers,
Ashley