Patience is the Key...

Life is the best teacher there is! Every second, every minute, every day it teaches us a valuable lesson. It is upto us whether we are smart enough to absorb that and put it to best use.

For me, my biggest problem has been my temper. I lose it at the slightest hint of an irritation. Let that be someone digging their nose, or someone chatting loudly on the phone. My dad always told me to learn and have a control on my temper. He has been saying this since i was 10. When playing cricket in the compound I would be screaming at other kids and my dad did not like it one bit.

Days passed, months and now years. Still, the fool that i am, I have not changed. If anything, I think I have become more worse. Sometimes, I happen to throw someone else's anger on someone else. And more often than not, it my dear Lourdes who is in the firing line.

But I plan to change. I want to change. I want people to see the difference. I am very impulsive. I have lost many a friends to my stupid temper. Sumeet, my best pal for many years, is the biggest loss in my life. We have spent the best of times together. But one stupid mistake by me, changed everything. Even today i regret that day, but I cant change anything. I cant go back.

All I can do is hope that things between Sumeet and Me become the same way they always were. He is one sweet friend.

But what I can do, is improve from today. I need to understand that the best way to overcome any tough situation is to keep quiet. Let the moment pass. Let the heat cool. It makes no sense to shout and hurt people. All you will end up doing is losing respect and one good friend. I have lost many friends. I almost lost another good friend, Ravi yesterday. But I have been blessed to have friends like Ravi and Sumeet, who keep quiet, listen to my crap and still approach me.

I thank God for friends like them. I also hope that God gives me the sense to be calm, composed and more patient when dealing with my dear friends.

So here I go, trying to be calm and sober. Lets see how this goes.

Cheers,
Ashley